Friday, August 22, 2008

My Goals

My goals

In this little book I have about eating right it says to set goals and reward yourself (with things other than food). This here is my list of goals and the ways I would like to reward myself. Let me know your thoughts on other ideas for rewards. How would you reward yourself? I've already been told I should use sex. I'm not ruling that out as an option, just so you know ;-)

Lose total of 3 pounds (don't want to start off to big) Buy a new pair of sunglasses
Lose total of 8 pounds Buy a new pair of shoes
Lose total of 12 pounds Get a pedicure
Lose total of 15 pounds Buy a new outfit

That's as far as I'm gonna plan out right now. I have a total goal of 100 pounds lost. Yeah, not even going to think that big right now. I'll get scared and run away otherwise.

I did not do good this week. I only did a full workout on Monday. I didn't follow any diet rules. I thought "It's my birthday week. I'm not gonna care" Well, now I do feel rather bad. I'm back on the wagon. I never reallllllly fell off. I tried to jump off the wagon but my foot got stuck and I spent the last week hanging from the wagon bumping my head on all the jagged rocks. I pulled myself in with my massive arm muscles and I'm ready to ride again. BTW-I don't have massive arm muscles. I made that part up.

Monday, August 18, 2008

Seriously? Where's the rest of the food?

WARNING!! I am in the process of changing my eating habits. It's not going to be pretty. Please bear with me.

I met with my dietitian Thursday. She's a very nice lady, alas, I do not remember her name. Let's call her lunch lady. I had fun with her. We laughed. I cried. It was emotional. I have an unhealthy relationship with food. I love it. I didn't get this figure from shunning away from good food. Lunch lady decided to put me on an insulin resistance diet. I have a family history of diabetes and we're trying to be proactive.

The plus side is that no foods are totally out of my life. Of course most are better for me than others. The hardest part is going to be portion control. What is with this world? I am so accustomed to large portion sizes. Have you ever seen the right way? There's barely any food there. I asked lunch lady if she was hiding the rest behind her pyramid. She just laughed at me. I need to get me a set of rubber food like she has and carry it around so I can compare sizes. I am allotted 2-3 servings (which is 15 grams a serving) of carbs per lunch and dinner. 2-3 servings of meat/cheese and 1 serving of fat. I also have a breakfast and snack in there.

They took my weight again at this appointment. I gained 1.5 pounds. Not good. However, I lost 4% body fat and gained 2% muscle. They said that's good. I'm gonna believe them.

Work outs are going great. I'm actually enjoying that part. I got my Gazelle thingy set up in my living room for those days I don't feel like walking. It's a nice change up.

It's gonna be hell these next few weeks. I hope beyond hope that I start to see results. It will make it so much easier!

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

You won't believe it. Or, maybe you will

Good morning!

I have my dietitian appointment Thursday afternoon. I'm telling ya', keeping a food diary is not fun. You go to eat something and then it's like 'I have to write this down. Is it worth it?' I was not supposed to change my food habits at all for the first 3 weeks but I found myself tweaking it along the way. I'm super excited about meeting the diet lady. Again, no clue what her name is. Actually I'm not even sure it's a her but we're just going to assume. I'll let you know. I am scared for one thing after I start the diet portion. I don't want people watching everything I eat. I don't want to be judged for having a cookie. Of course I want everyone to help me stay on track but I don't want ridicule for what I eat.

I doubled up my work out yesterday. I wasn't really feeling anything after I did a full work out. I was tired but not sore. I want to feel it. I want to suffer ;-) Ok, that may be extreme but you get my point. I talked to Jeff yesterday after I did my 30 minute warm-up on the treadmill. He agreed that I could step it up. I am now doing 2 sets of 10 reps on each machine. I'll do that for a week and then see if I can increase my weights. My legs are sore but my arms aren't. I wish I could feel something in them. Then I'd know that it was working.

Shelly helped me measure my body this morning. I'm not seeing a change in weight but maybe there's a change in my diameter. Maybe not but it's worth a try. Are you ready for this? I'm not. But I'm gonna tell you anyways. Most of you have seen me in a swimsuit so this won't be that much of a shock for you. For the others, please pick your chin up off the floor ;-)

Arms ~ 16.5
Bust ~ 53.5
Waist ~ 51
Hips ~ 54.25
Leg ~ 26.5

Thursday, August 7, 2008

Early does not make me happy

I did it!! I got up early this morning and went to the gym. As much as I want to say I loved it, I didn't. At all. Getting up early is for the birds and only the birds. I had to swear at myself to get me out of bed. I hurt my own feelings :-( It was not pretty. But I made it there by 6:38am. There was only one other lady there that was crazy enough to wake up early. I only walked for 15 minutes. I wasn't sure how much time I had since this was my first time in the morning and I had to shower and get to work by 8am.

I did my work out, which did feel good, but I got all hot and sweaty. I think I may be ready to add some more sets or more weight. I'll bring that up to "The Lady" next week. I still don't know her name. The guys name is Jeff. That's all I know.

I showered after my work out. I was so proud of myself for packing my scrubs and everything so I could go straight to work afterwards. I'm laying out my clothes for after my shower when I realize I am not as good as I thought I was. I forgot to pack underwear. There's no way I was gonna wear the dirty ones I just exercised in. No way I could not wear any underwear. It doesn't seem right with khaki pants that are thin. I ended up having to run home before going to work so I could put underwear on. I also had a glass of water while I was home.

I totally made it to work on time. Not a problem. I know I have to keep doing this early Thursday morning thing but I'm not happy about it. People say that you get used to it. I have my own theory. I am not fit enough to enjoy early morning work outs. It wears me out and I get grouchy. However, for fit and trim people it's fun because they don't have the extra weight to carry around. And they're usually crazy people anyways. But I love them!!

I don't think I've lost any weight. I feel the same. I'm more of an instant gratification person. I wish I saw some sort of difference. I think it would help with my determination.

Thanks again for all our help and support! I love you all!!! Shannon, you rock my world. I miss you!!

Friday, August 1, 2008

Week One Down!

I have got to start off with thanking everyone for all the love and support I have received. It has been amazing!! When there are times I no longer believe in myself I can remember that you all believe in me and that will get me through. You are all amazing!!

My first week is done. As you may remember, I am unable to take Topamax for migraines because I am allergic. Remember that, it will come in handy later.

Monday went great! I went to the gym after work. I did the whole workout. It took me about an hour. By the time I made it to the big ball for crunches I wanted to crawl. I have to admit though, I did feel good. I left there a sweaty smelly girl and I loved it!! I cooked chicken with zuchinni, broccoli, and green peppers for dinner. My mamma came over and ate with me. I had to run to Walgreens to pick up some stuff and I ran into the pharmacist. He rememeberd me. I asked if he wanted his Topamax back and he said flush it down the toilet and never ever take it again. A puffy face is a face one never forgets.

I didn't go to the gym on Tuesday. It was a walking day so I figured I'd walk around my neighborhood after work. I really should have gone to the gym in the morning because by the time I got off work it was so freaking hot. The gym closes at 4:30 on Tuesday. I only walked for 15 minutes. I wanted to cry! I'm not a huge fan of intense heat and humidity.

I did my 30 minute walk on Wednesday. It was nice. Got some frustrations out. Love you Shell!!!
I am embarrassed to admit I didn't do my workout Thursday. I woke up at the time my alarm went off and my head was exploding. I serioulsy thought my nose was gonna blow off my face. I had a migraine. Can you believe it?? A freaking migraine. I went back to bed and woke up at 8am. I'm supposed to be at work at 8am. I called them and said I'd be in when I could. Not a nice day. Rather painful. No workout. I feel quilty. Kinda like I already failed but it's only the first week. I can totally make it up.

I'm looking forward to next week. I hope it turns out a bit better than this one. I'm really gonna push myself. I'm ready to be buff and sexy!! Whoa!!